To fly.

Wouldn't it be an awfully big adventure?

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n. the moment of realization that your quintessential self isn’t going to show up, which forces the role to fall upon the understudy, the humble kid for whom nothing is easy, who has spent years mouthing their lines in the wings before stumbling out into the glare of your life, which by then is already well into its second act.

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How I Lost My Life To Television

So this morning, I started watching Suits. It’s a great show, with pretty guys and good acting and it’s quite well-written. I found myself falling into that ridiculously self-indulgent pattern that I often fall into with a new TV show. I kind of forget I exist, eat really badly and generally just lose awareness of my consciousness.
So here I am, 7 hours and 6 episodes later. During these 7 hours, I have eaten enough potato waffles and Viennese butter cookies (it’s all the food I have right now) to have perfected it into a Shakespearean level of art form. I have also lain on this sofa in every possible position to the point that I may as well be a part of it. This process has also allowed me to emotionally detach myself from myself so much that I argued with my boyfriend and forgot about it for the next 6 hours. I spoke to my best friend between episodes 5 and 6 and I honestly cannot remember about 87% of what she said. Of course, that’s an approximation. It may be more than 87%. It probably is.
So. Much as I love television, which I do, I’m sitting on this sofa with half of episode 7 to go and finding it so difficult to make the decision to move and do normal things. Take a shower. Eat an actual meal. Clean. Find the ability to care about the things around me.

I have, once again, been sucked in.
God have mercy upon my soul.

(I just involuntarily picked up the remote and pressed play. Watch this space for more updates on the gradual disappearance of my sanity.)

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